What is a Saturn Return? My Story at Age 30
Every 27 to 29 years, Saturn returns to the sign it was in when you were born, a cycle called The Saturn Return. Understanding this cosmic rite of passage can help you heal deeper and advance into your next stage of adulthood.
YOUR COSMIC RITE OF PASSAGE
Every 29.5 years (approximately), you’ll get the nudge that you need to advance into a new stage of adulthood. In astrology, we call it the Saturn Return.
“There’s a very obvious reason for this name: Saturn takes approximately 29.5 years to complete one full orbit around the sun and literally return to the same zodiac sign it was in when you were born. The first Saturn Return, which can happen between ages 27 and 30, is a bit like a cosmic bar mitzvah, quinceanera or communion if you will: a rite of passage welcoming you into your more mature role here on earth. Wherever Saturn is in your chart will point to your toughest lessons, but the ones you might become obsessed with breaking through.” -astrostyle blog
Saturn Returns can be rough, but very healing
For me, my Saturn Return started at age 29, from January to October of this year — basically the entirely of 2019. I also decided my “word” for the new year was surrender, and little did I know how much I was going to be challenged to do so. So much has happened in the past nine months that nudged me towards “upgrading” myself and my life, which has helped me become more in alignment with my dharma and my highest self– becoming the woman I want and need to be. It’s helped me create some big shifts! Here are a few of them:
- I’ve been dealing with hormonal imbalance issues, which nudged me to eat CLEAN and use clean products. I’ve cut out meat, dairy, and all processed foods. I also threw out ALL of my house cleaning, skin, hair, and makeup products, and replaced them with clean, ethical, sustainable products.
- I got really into Ayurveda and did my first Panchakarma in May (with my mama!)
- I’ve stepped deeper into my own healing, spirituality, beliefs, patterns and overall narrative (such as “I don’t fit in / belong”) stemming from trauma history – AGAIN. Because healing is like an onion: it happens in layers. And just when you think you’ve healed something, something bigger comes along and triggers it all back up again in a whole new way! The Universe is constantly sending us opportunities to go deeper, to truly heal, and to learn the lessons we need to learn in this lifetime.
- I completed a Shamanic Priestess Process and got ordained. Through this, I went deeper into my relationship with myself, experienced the healing powers of Shamanic Breathwork for the first time (another amazing healing tool) and I gained a new sense of the importance of sisterhood.
- I’ve learned to create some boundaries that were long overdue. Some with my partner, some with my family, some with myself, and some in the stepmom role I’m in.
- I’ve learned to be alone, to really enjoy my time alone, and have stepped closer to fully and completely loving and accepting myself than I ever have. Because that is the KEY to life: relationships and happiness. This has happened through small moments of being kind and compassionate towards myself. I have done this through mirror work, how I talk to myself, catching negative thoughts or self-judgement, and giving myself more hugs and physical affection. And of course, through taking care of myself, listening to my body, and practicing deep relaxation.
- It’s taught me to truly let go of things I can’t control. To surrender and give it up to the Universe. To detach from my own personal expectations and instead, pray for the greater good of all.
- Through all of this, I’ve also learned what it means to mother myself before I become a biological mother. Which is something I may not have experienced before I became a mother if I hadn’t been going through all of this really difficult stuff.
I’m so damn grateful for difficulties and challenges
When you set on a spiritual path, the Universe throws so much more difficulties at you to really show how committed you are to that path. And for all of these challenges, lessons, and the healing I’ve done, I’m so proud of myself, and I’m so damn grateful. Thank you, Saturn Return. Thank you, Universe. It’s all helped me to grow up, and get closer to living out my dharma. Because first, the healer must heal themselves I must go really, really deep into my soul and my darkness if I’m ever going to ask others to do the same. I’m now closer than ever towards becoming my highest self and the woman, wife, mother, stepmother, daughter, sister, friend, and healer I want and need to be.
To learn when your Saturn Return is, create your free birth chart here.
Now I would love to hear from you.
Have you been through your Saturn Return? What was it like? What did you learn, heal from, or shift? Let me know in the comments below and I look forward to connecting and going deeper with you. Sending much love, self-care, and gratitude.